After being threatened with debarment (and expulsion), my grandmama is hospitalized.
Hokes then called to tell me I won't be able to see him on Sunday because he's leaving for M'sia that night. Smth sad happened, but it's not my place to say.

WHY does this feel like deja vu.

I REFUSE to let history repeat itself. Because I'm proud like that. Too proud to let myself consciously make the same mistakes.
I learnt from them. Right?


:(


Why can't everyone just let me be?



I miss Hokes.
I get to see him like what? 4-5 hours a week only?
And now that I'm won't be seeing him this week,
aww :(


I spent the time cleaning my room. It seems my OCD has gotten worse. I vacuum my room inside out every weekend, make my bed every morning, remembered to write stuff in my planner, do my laundry, hang my clothes properly, help mama out with extra chores since she's been staying overnight at the hospital with grandmama- HELLO what happened to the teenager living in the pigsty?


I've completed 5 projects/assignments. 3 more to go!
YESSS!
Well done, me! *pats back*
Now, to summon up the drive to spend every waking moment...

studying.