Don't you hate it when people decide to give you a ring but do it to only give you a missed call and expect you to call them back?

Two days in a row.

Peoples. If you want to call someone, please wait as long as it would bloody take a person to answer your call because if every single being on planet earth was made up of Ryan Taylors, I can assure you that this world would be an extremely ugly place.

You call someone because you need or want to talk to them, no?

SO merci beaucoup srsly, have some balls to wait a little longer instead of hanging up after like what..2 secs of calling? ...THE HELL BABIES.



OR.
JUST.



give that person a break and stop calling.

Btw, one-word text messages are hella annoying as well.

It's like asking someone a question like..

"Hello, what did you buy at the mall today?"

"Okay."

OR

Person A: "Hey, I wanna go out tonight."

Person B: "Ok, so where do you wanna go?"

Person A: "Dunno."

Person B: "How about *insert place*?"

Person A: "Dunnooooooo."

Person B: "So, where the fuck do you want to go then?"

Person A: "DUNNNOO!"

What the shit is this?

Please if you decide to initiate an outing do know where you want to go or at least have a slight idea of where you want to be at. Have the decency to at least type a longer message instead of doing the triple dunno's. If every text msg reply is gonna be a 'dunno' then you might as well stay at home and enjoy being a couch potato.

Labels: Angry Bombs, Aussie Powaaah, The King

*insert Forrest Gump accent*


My mama always said...



"Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get."






Gawd damn son.

Labels: Aussie Powaaah, Quote, The King

Strangely, I feel so at peace now!


Hahahaha


I've had dinner.
I'm chatting with Jwong.

I don't know why I'm in such a good mood. Well not really good mood. Just feel so... serene.


cookies starbucks movies stolen kisses long talks cuddles bedtime stories tshirts to breathe your scent in deep reminiscence early morning naps nature walks breakfast sets jokes laughter endless staring tickles teasing I don't walk right not like I used to there's a jump in my step as I rush to see you I could be happy here as long as you're near to me as long as you're close to me now that I'm alright as I'm trying I can help you out just to keep things right I'll be what you need goodbye apathy so goodbye apathy


I think.
I shall read a book :)

Labels: Elle, Of Hokums and Honeystars, Questionable, Random Mandoms, The Queen, Weird Shiz

The more I read Alfred's blog post, the more irritated I get.

Not only is he completely blind to whatever I'm saying, he still thinks he's in the right?

I'm wrong? Is it? I'm wrong?

Okay, I'm horrendously evil. I extract myself from this stupid petty fight.


You want to be angry with me? Go ahead, I'm not gonna bother wasting my energy being angry at something so stupid.



Yes Alfred, you're the only one who failed two modules. Yes Alfred, you're the only one whose parents are being asses. Yes Alfred, you so poor thing, have to be so independent, support yourself and your school fees.

SO POOR THING. POOR YOU AWWWWW.


I mean, ***** probably feels so much better than you, she's supporting herself AND her family while her father was retrenched and struggling to help the family pay the bills.

Oh, **** feels awesome too, when her parents are currently going through a divorce.


And ***** is gonna be alright because his father has a mistress.
Wow, you have no idea how many people I know who have families breaking apart. Really. But it's personal so obviously, I'm not gonna start listing them.


How bout the countless others who lost a loved one? or loved ones?



You want pity is it? Huh Alfred? Is the only thing youre gonna do is resign to your bad luck and horrible life, and not do anything about it? Is your life that horrible that you can't see anything at all that you could possibly be happy about? Possibly appreciate?



Btw, I have never. Pangseh-ed anyone, for Hokes. The only one time I pangseh-ed you, I told you the reason why already. And everytime I go out with Hokes, it's because he booked me, ensuring that I have no prior plans with any one of you first. And if I need to emergency pangseh Hokes for any of you, I would. And he would definitely understand. But just that SHORT ONE WEEK. One week. 7 days. Just because I prioritize him first, does not mean I don't have an hour or 2 to spare for you at all. And after that one week, I am so bloody available?! So I don't see the issue of me ditching friends for boyfriend kinda shit coming up. Because eventhough I did say "I'm gonna spend every waking moment with Hokes." I would never abandon you when youre in a crisis. If you believed i meant that literally, then I shall say with gusto,

You are a fucking idiot! HAHA!

So JUST BECAUSE I GET EXCITED TO MEET HOKES and just because I don't jump around when I've plans with you guys, does not make me a hypocrite.



You know damn well that if you needed me, I'd be there for you. Don't be so wishy washy. Say things CLEARLY.

Need examples?

"Khalisah, I need to talk to you. Yes. Now."


"Khalisah are you free now? I need to talk to you. Can I call you? Or you call me?"


"Khalisah, I feel like shit. Get back to me asap."



If something is not alright DON'T ACT AS IF IT IS. IF YOU ACT AS IF IT IS then I will assume it's too personal to talk about it so I WONT ASK YOU IF YOURE ALRIGHT. I don't like to probe. It makes me feel like a kepo.

I'm not a psychic, and I may not know what's the right thing to do all the time. But I try my best to at least be there for you. If you won't tell me, how would I know?


Lastly, I don't know why I must justify myself. If I wanna pon lesson I pon lah. Why cannot? At least I did my assignment. At least I bothered. At least I have an attitude to want to do well. YOU don't. That's the difference between us. You just give up. Just like that. I have an issue with your attitude. Attitude.

And to think I forgot all about being angry at you for making me wait 2 hours for you. You're being kinda selfish, don't you think?



My advice.
Go read your own blog.
LISTEN TO YOURSELF.

And listen to how retarded you sound.

Wake up.

Labels: Bitch-mode, Elle, Hissy Fit, Of Hokums and Honeystars, School, The Queen

I am so so ****ing annoyed right now.


And I refuse to talk to Alfred until he gets over himself.



For God's sake, since I refuse to talk to you until you actually grow up, here's a not-so-little message on my humble blog.

GET OVER YOURSELF.


You were late. For school. By an hour. While I highly doubt it's possible that could be an hour late when you left the house early/on time. But let's give you the benefit of the doubt. Let's say you DID left the house EARLY, let's say the traffic was RIDICULOUSLY HORRIBLE, and the bus is UNBEARABLY SLOW, and you were, in all honesty, an hour late.

Isn't it completely idiotic, to reach school, and then decide to return home JUST BECAUSE you're an hour late and the lecturer might actually say something about it and you just don't wanna listen to it. You could have a productive 2 hour lesson out of the 3 hour prac lesson.

But just because Dr F is gonna say what, 2-3 lines at most? You're gonna miss the entire lesson. I'm sorry but I find it completely idiotic to waste your time like that.

STOP LETTING YOUR EMOTIONS RULE YOUR LIFE.


I once did, and look where it got me? I ****ed up my life. At least I actually make an effort to fix it. You don't even bother trying. I hate unambitious people.


I said the things I said to you to WAKE YOU UP. Stop thinking you're the most important person in the world. Stop making mountains out of molehills.

Let me quote your oh so victimized text message.


"Right. lik you are acting lik a 19? you just said e worst thing you can say to your fren.your fren who had e worst holiday yet stayed strong to cheer you up to tolerate with your hokes frenzy.your bloody fren who you think is childish and redundant."


What pisses me of is how you assume I think you're childish and redundant.

Do I think you're behaving childishly now?

Yes.


Do I think you're redundant?

No. I have never thought my friends redundant. Close or distant, all my friends played a role in my life to shape me into who I am today. Putting words into my mouth eh, dear friend?



YOU had the worst holiday? Really now. HAD YOU CONSULTED ME regarding Her I might actually get your head outta the clouds long enough for you to stop taking action on impulse. Now look, at the mess you got yourself into. GET OVER IT. BGR issues are small issues. Yes they strike close to the heart but STOP MAKING IT YOUR ENTIRE WORLD.


Regarding Hokes, I think you're being unfair to me. You know how much time I have left with Hokes. You know why I focus my time with him because you have more opportunities than him to meet me, see me, talk to me.


I say these things not to spitefully hurt you. YES, I'm pissed at you, but this is the brutal honest painful truth. Here I am trying to HELP YOU but how can I help you WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN BOTHER TRYING HELPING YOURSELF.

I see no effort made whatsoever.


You stayed strong to cheer me up and tolerate my hokes frenzy? You know it's just a SMALL THING, what makes you think I would forgo YOUR ISSUES just because I'm suddenly crazy over Hokes? You didn't even bother TRYING to tell me about your issues. You speak as if I rattle on and on about Hokes non-stop.


PUH-LEASE.


YOU HAD MANY OPPORTUNITIES TO SHARE IT WITH ME. IF YOU CHOOSE NOT TO, I RESPECT YOUR ****ing DECISION SO DON'T ACT AS IF I WASN'T BEING YOUR FRIEND.

You could have asked me out ANY DAY, you didn't.
The only day I rejected you to go out with Hokes was because we only had a week left with each other. And also because I just lan-ed with you and Hokes the other day to try cheer you up.

You could have called me ANY TIME, you didn't.
Want me to check my call log?


You could have msn-ed me ANY TIME, I'm online almost every other night.
But when you did, you didn't even come close to telling me.

I rattle on and on about Hokes is it? That I don't even give you ANY OPPORTUNITY AT ALL TO OPEN UP TO ME? PLEASE LA, THERE'S ONLY SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT HOKES REGARDLESS OF MY LOVE FOR HIM.


Stop acting victimized. GET your act together. Here I am trying to help you and you think I happily happily kick you deeper into the mud when you're down? WAKE UP, ALFRED. THERE ARE THINGS MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR MOODS.



How dare you act self-righteous? As if you're the only one going through one of your lowest points in life.


You did not see me breakdown when Ryan gave me the ultimatum. You did not see me breakdown when my mother told me I was ruining her life, ruining her family as if I'm not part of the family.
You did not see me struggling to sleep.
You did not see me rejecting Lexapro.
You did not see me trying to get myself in the right state of mind.

Don't act as if you're so wonderful a friend that you've been there for me all along.


I understand depression. I've been there. It's addictive. It makes you feel good about your misery. It makes you feel alone, like no one understands you. It makes you come up with excuses and makes you BELIEVE in your own excuses. You've seen me there, done that. I've said depression makes you stupid.

SO don't let something stupid like depression ruin your life too.



Everytime you feel down, and upset or depressed about your life, just remember someone else out there has it worse.

Your problems are NOTHING, compared to some people out there. You CAN get over these problems so stop happily wallow in your misery and start doing something about it.


Sure, I skip school too. Sure, I sleep in lectures. But AT LEAST I have the attitude to WANT to accomplish something. I don't see that in you at all.
It annoys me.


I've yet to slap you for making me wait for 2 ****ing hours yesterday.





Get out of the abyss of self-pity. Help me help you. I'm not gonna bitch about you being irritating to other people and ignore you totally. I'm here if you want help. Just make an effort to reach out to it.

Labels: Bitch-mode, Elle, Hissy Fit, Morning Madness, School, The Queen

I'll be leaving on Friday to fulfill my Singaporean duties in the form of shaving my head (amongst other things that are done in the army). Sadly, this means I have to leave Her which only makes our situation worse (not that we're in a fight or anything like that) but I'm pretty confident about us. Our current situation probably makes us more prepared for what is to come than other couples. This is all too depressing when I'm talking about Her who makes me so happy. I shall digress from me leaving. I'll talk about Her instead.


She is as pretty as the hue of a sun rise.
She is as charming as a poet.
She is as wise as a religious leader.
She is as cute as a puppy.
She is as beautiful as the stars.
She is as precious as a child's macaroni necklace.
She is as hot as a freshly baked pie. Mmmmmmm.
She is as passionate as a rose.
She is everything that's important to me.
She is my babe.


I've realised that we work so well because we don't plan our lives to revolve around each other's. We acknowledge that we are big parts in each other's lives, but we don't make each other our whole life. It's very much like holding hands. Each is their own person, linking at the hands symbolising the sharing of their individual lives. It's about coexisting and not obsessing. Look past the superficial of a relationship. It's not about being loved or being in love, but loving her the best that I can because I realise that it's not about how I feel. And I believe that she realises it too. And it's simply put, beautiful. Everyday is an opportunity to show that I love her to the best of my ability. Valentine's day or anniversaries or any other special dates are never the exclamation of expressing my love. This is a quote from a letter that I sent to Her years ago: "It’s the best I can do for now, but I promise you that all you’re going to get is the best of me." And it still holds true till today. This, is us. And I'm in love with it.


-not barney

Labels: Her, Jacob, Paperbag

BFF came over for awhileeeee. Looked at my baby photo albums haha, embarrassing much? Went to town to shop for a top for BFF's boyfriend. And I belatedly realised that I have no idea what kinda top would Hokes look good in or even like. We drank Starbucks YUMMEHNESS and BFF went off to tutor this kid while I bummed around at home.

I don't know why I had so much to blog about the time I spent there in my head just now. Now, I'm like. Stoned. Manning the CCA booth now, alone. Rawr. Boringness.

I'm hungry.


Dammit.


I'm hungry.






Blehhh.

Labels: Elle

I know it's a Wednesday but I really have no mood to blog.


Until now! haha!


So, anyway, on Monday, I woke up reeeeaaall early to go all the way down to Hokes' place. I had breakfast with him and his parents, of which they paid for my meal (how nice! I must remember to pay hokes back) They then drove me down to the SAF jetty thingy where we're to take a ferry to Tekong!

And his parents are sooo awesome, they gave me a coupon to join them!


SO, I went onboard the ferry, we saw Hokes' waterpolo friend WHO ALSO LOOKS HILARIOUS BALD hahahahaha seriously xD

We arrived on Pulau Tekong and we gotta split up so Hokes and the other boys had to settle administrative issues (like uniform sizes and bunk rooms and all that jazz) while me and Hokes' parents were given a tour around Tekong.

I was kinda afraid to be left alone with his parents, caz I've never been alone with them before, but my worries were unfounded caz they were awfully nice and I feel surprisingly comfortable with them. We boarded the bus, and this army dude starting talking and he kept assuring us that our sons will be fine and the facilities are awesome and they will be comfortable and even more safe here under the awesome supervision of the army dudes ah whatever. I know you're gonna give poor Hokes hell. hahahaha IT'S OKAY. HE WILL LEARN HOW TO BE A MAN. suuuuure hahaha stupid.


We saw the bunks and the canteen and the training grounds and it really looks like a school. It looks like Crescent HAHA the colours are like beigey like in crescent. Now I have the impression that army is like a more horrible version of OBS with shitty instructors and you wake up at 4.30 am every day.

The food there is supposedly better today since the family is here, but it's still below average tasting. I can't imagine the food when we're not there. I bet it taste shitty hehehe TOO BAD. Hokes, you have to learn to stop being picky. Please don't lose weight. Sigh, I like you just the way you are now.

We went to the auditorium and sat in comfy seats and air-condition. Listened to the most boring speech in the world about how awesome army is and what they're gonna do and their purpose and whatnots I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER IT NOW maybe that's their real intention hahaha.

Then they had to take the oath.

Which is FREAKING FUNNY I LAUGHED OUT LOUD.



dude in-charge: Repeat after me. 'I'.

boys: I.

dude in-charge: 'NRIC number'

boys: (verbal vomit. everyone says their IC number at the same time hahahahaha)

dude in-charge: 'name'.

boys: (more verbal vomit hahahahahahaha)

dude in-charge: 'will swear to protect bla bla bla'

boys: will swear to protect blabblabla


Hahahahahaha


So we had a final lunch with the boys before they had to line up and march to their bunks and I gave Hokes a final goodbye kiss and hug sighhh.



Hokes: Mee, Pa, take care of yourselves k? (turns to me) You take care of yourself too k?

Mamee and Pa: Mmm.(nods)

Hokes: Mee, take care of her for me k?

Mamee: NO. I THROW HER AWAY.

Me: HAHAHAHAHAHA

Pa:

Hokes:

Mamee: Of course I take care of her lah! Aiyo. Then what? I throw her away ah?

Me: HAHAHAAHHAHAA

Pa:

Hokes:

Mamee: You ah.

Hokes: Okok you take care of youself too k? Bye bye!



Lmao seriously, I can make a comedy out of the conversations I hear.


His parents are seriously adorable, I feel like they're my own parents really. Pa was always all today very hot, must drink more water and so I'd drink water from the bottle. And Mee (Hokes calls his parents Pa and Mee. Mee as in from Mummy. you know. ah whatevs hahaha) would call me young lady at first, telling me to be careful and watch my step when we're boarding/alighting the ferry or bus or when we're walking down the stairs. Then she took to calling me dear and asked me if there's any food I wanna get, joking with me about army dudes hahaha she once thought that this army dude fully uniformed with green and black face paint and all was a statue! and she almost poked his face AHAHAHAAH and then she started laughing to herself when she realised it was a real man lmao didn't I say they were adorable?

While Mee was away talking to the whoever it is in charge of Hokes' company, I sat down in the canteen with Pa and we constantly had funny conversations. (I found them funny and cute actually) Pa would ask me about my school and course and universities and what Hokes applied to, and it would lead to me asking him about Hokes' brothers. We talked about PK and SL (the brothers) and what course PK was in and how I'm in the same year as his cousin and seeing as we're all from NP too.

Then during the talk about army equipment and uniform, Pa asked me if I've ever been on the Tekong tour and asked me if I had a brother and I said yeah but he's younger and Pa would tell me how my bro would go through this too and how good it is for him but we ended up talking about SL(the first brother) in army previously and how PK is going into army soon (the second brother) I don't think I've ever heard his Dad talked so much before, he's always a quiet looking man hahahaha.
Maybe I ask too many questions? Or he likes talking about his sons. HE'S ADORABLE DID I MENTION THAT? hahahaha omg i'm so weird.



After hokes left, in the ferry on the way back to Sg, Mee offered me some sour preserved peaches and they're yummy. All of us were so tired, walking around Tekong and IT WAS SO HOT. Blardy.


We walked back to the car, me chatting with Mee abit about fishing and then they drove me to Habourfront MRT station.

I was sleepy in the car so I stoned alot looking out the window, generally missing Hokes to bits.

Then, I overheard this really funny conversation between his parents. It's in English mixed with dialect and Mandarin. But they were mostly speaking in dialect or smth. Or maybe it's justt Mandarin but my ear got problem hahaha.


Mee: (was talking about PK for awhile. PK couldnt make it today. was relief teaching) You know, PK almost make one of his students cry you know?

Pa: Hmm.

Mee: Tsk that PK ah. At least he can control his students. Got discipline. Sumore he very big-sized.

Pa:

Mee: Wah... Song Loo cannot man. He sure cannot one.

Pa:

Mee: But PK can la. If Hoe Khoon... Aiya Hoe Khoon ah. Cannot make it lah. Hoe Khoon will go and play with the kids already.


HAHAHAHAHAHA
OMG I found that so hilarious I was grinning in the backseat hahahaha.



So they dropped me off outside Vivo and I thanked them and promised to drop by their shop soon to pass them something (HEHE DONT TELL YOU WHAT) And I slept in the train all the way home.


I miss you chubby bunny! I've been spamming him with smses all day so he can read them all at night, I know he'll be too tired to call and talk to me or it would be lights out and he cant call caz if the sarge walking around. So sms spam is nice :)
I'm an awesome girlfriend hahaha riiiight. On the ferry, before he left for army, I gave him my whistle necklace thingy. It's a small wooden less-than-an-inch-long rectangular whistle with black and silver design and my name on it. I had it made last year. It has a thick and long black string around and Hokes wanted it, so I gave it to him to keep him company in army :)

I also gave him my ugly alumni card with my face on it, caz he wanted a picture of me and I forgot to print one. We didnt think of it earlier :( Hokes gave me his blue ezlink card with his retarded sec 1 face on it HAHAHAHA the exact same hairstyle he has now. awwwwww :)


Mee thinks his botak hairstyle now is adorable, so geram you know, he looks like when he was younger last time hahahaha.



Before he left, Hokes also gave me the t-shirt he wore the night before. It has his scent on it :) And I keep breathing in the scent sighh, he smells good :) But the scent is fadingggg :(



I miss you.


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I'm not used to this.

Labels: Brother, Chat Log, Elle, Of Hokums and Honeystars, The Queen, Weird Shiz

I know I haven't been blogging. I'm sorry, I've been real busy with FYP and Hokes is going into army ON MONDAY SO I WILL SPEND EVERY WAKING MOMENT WITH HIM, and yes I will ditch all of you for more time with Honeystar.

I've got tonnes of things to blog about so..

too bad I guess.




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HAHAHAHAHA WATCH THIS.

Labels: Elle, Emo Nemo, Of Hokums and Honeystars, Questionable, Random Mandoms, School, The Queen, Videos, Weird Shiz

1. People that walk in groups and stretch themselves out to block the entire walk way.

2. People that stop suddenly before getting on the escalator because they just had a thought that maybe they want to stay on the same floor.

3. Parents that can't control their kids.

4. People that sit on the outer seat of the bus even though the inner seat is empty.

5. People that sit on the outer seat of the bus and expect you to squeeze past them to get to the empty inner seat.

6. People that sit on the outer seat of the bus and don't get up to let you out. Maybe these people just like their face to be in the stranger's ass.

7. People that place their bags on the empty seat next to them and pretend to not see you standing there.

8. People that sit behind you and keep pushing on your seat.

9. People that stand at the doors of the bus/train instead of moving in.

10. People that stand at the doors of the train, making you salmon your way through to get off the train.

11. People that sit next to you with their legs opened because they have no concept of personal space.

12. People that are forever talking on their cell phones. Is the person you're talking to really that interesting? Is what you say really that important that it cannot wait?

13. People that talk obnoxiously loud on the phone.

14. People that are oblivious to their surroundings. Especially while driving.

15. People that stop suddenly for no apparent reason and stays there instead of moving to the side to get out of other's way.

16. Couples that can't wait to get home to make out.

17. Girls that try hard to be cute to get what they want.

18. Girls that whine about everything.

19. Guys that try too hard to be "cool".

20. Guys that try too hard to impress others.

21. People that are impatient. Especially with old people.

22. People that are butt ugly but think they're the hottness need elbows to the face to actually make them look better.

23. People who behave as if they are God's gift to the world.

24. People that give themselves English names because apparently the names their parents gave them aren't good enough.

25. People that give themselves English names but don't actually think of a proper name and choose one based on how cool it sounds. For example, I met a girl who called herself Haze. She named herself to be a freaking fog.

26. People that give themselves English names, but say it's their Christian name. It's not a Christian name because you're not a freaking Christian.

27. Cam whores that have only one pose in all their pictures. I promise, I have seen a slide show of this girl (cam whores are usually girls. sorry but it's true) where she looks exactly the same but in different locations.

28. People that insist on taking the elevator even though it's just one floor.

29. People who pretend that they can actually speak English with good diction. Usually those that fake an accent but can't pull it off. You still sound very Chinese.

30. People that behave like idiots because they think it's funny.






- not tod

Labels: Jacob, The Anarchist

Okay, I've decided to move my personal issues away from this blog :) This blog shall be a happier one :)




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I may create another blog if I can be bothered. ask me.

Labels: Elle, Emo Nemo, Hissy Fit, Insanity, Questionable, Random Mandoms, The Queen, Weird Shiz