The King, The Queen And The Anarchist

(12:11 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	so currently u arent thinking of anyone? am i right to say?
(12:12 AM) Alaine:	umm i guess?
(12:12 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	okay lol cos ur life is so complicated
(12:12 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	just trying to know u better
(12:13 AM) Alaine:	haha i know right? and to think i thought i liked simple things
(12:13 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	dont worry, im like that too lol
(12:13 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	no one can figure me out so im trying not to blame them since its my fault
(12:14 AM) Alaine:	well i dont think i'm very hard to understand, but i can be very different sometimes
(12:16 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	like how different?
(12:16 AM) Alaine:	like one minute i'm this kinda person, the next minute i'm another sort of person
(12:17 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	isnt everyone like that?
(12:17 AM) Alaine:	but i am vastly drastically different
(12:17 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	cos im usually happy then suddenly very emo with suicidal thoughts
(12:18 AM) Alaine:	well i'm not talking about emotions... more of like personality?
(12:18 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	hmm??
(12:19 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	explain lol
(12:22 AM) Alaine:	like.. remember my profile? on not clubbing and drinking and smoking>
(12:22 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	yea
(12:23 AM) Alaine:	a week ago, i liked clubbing.
(12:23 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	so you're fickle minded, no biggy
(12:25 AM) Alaine:	sometimes i'm very reserved, i dont like to approach people
(12:26 AM) Alaine:	and sometimes I'm just a social butterfly, loving being loud and fun and rebel all social norms >.>
(12:26 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	hmm
(12:27 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	im sure you'll find yourself
(12:27 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	are you getting any help for this?
(12:27 AM) Alaine:	no...? should i?
(12:28 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	well it could be split personality
(12:29 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	or maybe you just like everything and your moods just choose for u like im seeking help for myself seeing counsellors and psychiatrists
(12:29 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	cos ive been thinking of suicide since very young always negative and all but yet i always wanna help people and i like to see others happy
(12:29 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	and somtimes, i dont like to see other people happy because im not happy
(12:30 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	cos i cant find happiness like that them*
(12:30 AM) Alaine:	oh i dont think it's split personality
(12:30 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	now you know my problem
(12:30 AM) Alaine:	because jacob and ryan knows me very well
(12:30 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	ok
(12:30 AM) Alaine:	and, maybe youre right
(12:31 AM) Alaine:	i do like everything, and i'm terribly moody.
(12:37 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	so, still creating the blog?
(12:39 AM) Alaine:	everyone's picky about a blog name
(12:39 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	well dont be
(12:39 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	what ive learnt in life is never to be picky and to treasure what i have cos life never gives you what you want
(12:40 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	unless, well, you're rich and everyone likes you not for your money
(12:40 AM) Alaine:	i learn that life is never black and white. so i'm always stuck in the grey
(12:41 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	well arent we all i find i really have no true friends cos they only talk to me when they need me
(12:41 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	and they always ask others out and only ask me when they need me sigh i really hate my life
(12:42 AM) Alaine:	you know about the suicidal bit
(12:42 AM) Alaine:	i've never been the suicidal sort i always think that, if there's someone that should die, it shouldnt be me
(12:43 AM) Alaine:	and i dont believe that friends are forever
(12:43 AM) Alaine:	but i cherish the friends that are there for me, and if they take advantage of me, it's ok
(12:43 AM) Alaine:	because by being selfless, it makes me feel good.
(12:44 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	everyone takes advantage of me
(12:44 AM) Alaine:	stand up for yourself
(12:45 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	sigh i dont know i dont like scolding people
(12:45 AM) Alaine:	you know why i'm still single?
(12:45 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	nope
(12:46 AM) Alaine:	i have this mentality that not only does relationships at my age probably doesnt last, i always have this "I love you but I love me more" mindset.
(12:46 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	well i love myself more LOL but
(12:46 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	hmm i dunno all my relationships fail and i get dumped maybe im too trusting? and they step all over me?
(12:46 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	i just never say no.
(12:48 AM) Alaine:	i'm quite fierce i think
(12:48 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	you sounds really sweet to me
(12:48 AM) Alaine:	i tend to say uncomfortable truths :/
(12:48 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	uncomfortable truths? i dont understand
(12:48 AM) Alaine:	like sometimes
(12:49 AM) Alaine:	alot of people dont like someone, but they are hypocritical because they dont dare say things? i'd just tell you straight out :/ but never to offend
(12:49 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	well i do that too but
(12:50 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	sometimes i dont care if it offends that person like sometimes they really need to know
(12:50 AM) Wouldn't it be n:	when their like, total assholes.

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