The King, The Queen And The Anarchist

(1:14 AM) Dream:	hello!
(1:14 AM) Alaine:	hellooo
(1:14 AM) Dream:	miss me? lol
(1:15 AM) Dream:	i dont know why i keep asking that maybe cos i want people to miss me
(1:15 AM) Alaine:	haha most times i dont care if people do, but it feels nice when they do and i didnt catch your previous messages
(1:16 AM) Dream:	awww i was just saying that im a straight forward person too
(1:16 AM) Dream:	and i dont care if i offend anyone when i tell them what kinda person they are but usually their assholes if not i wont say anything at all
(1:16 AM) Alaine:	oh
(1:18 AM) Alaine:	and if like my friend whines about her bf being this this this. i'd just say "dump him". and umm, basically i reject people more often than not :/ so yeah, i let things deflect off me, and i cant be bothered about most stuff, except for people who matter in my life
(1:18 AM) Dream:	oh
(1:19 AM) Dream:	i usually just try to ask about what happened lol i guess, i like to analyse things
(1:20 AM) Dream:	i like to care about people and all, i want to care for someone
(1:21 AM) Dream:	but i wish that person would do the same lol omg sorry, im very random just feeling emo tonight
(1:22 AM) Alaine:	haha it's alright
(1:22 AM) Alaine:	i mean i dont like putting up with shit i dont deserve so, i'd just... dump them?
(1:22 AM) Dream:	i dont deserve such a life
(1:23 AM) Dream:	but i cant do anything about it i tried but, its not in my contorl
(1:23 AM) Alaine:	i dont believe in that
(1:23 AM) Dream:	control*
(1:23 AM) Alaine:	haha
(1:23 AM) Dream:	like, it depends on the other people all i can do is just say
(1:24 AM) Alaine:	i believe that if i want something strongly enough, i damn well make it happen
(1:24 AM) Dream:	good that you can do that i can think it say it but lol it takes 2 hands to clap
(1:24 AM) Alaine:	you dont believe it
(1:24 AM) Dream:	well, most of the time
(1:25 AM) Alaine:	you have to believe it
(1:25 AM) Dream:	hmm i'll try but you gotta try and find yourself cos, it seems you dont know yourself
(1:25 AM) Alaine:	you dont try, you do that's what i do.
(1:25 AM) Dream:	i like to strike deals
(1:25 AM) Alaine:	hahaa i believe at 18 years alot *old
(1:25 AM) Dream:	well, i like to say try so i dont make any promises
(1:26 AM) Alaine:	it's a phase in life where everyone's searching for themselves so that's what i'm doing
(1:26 AM) Alaine:	and it's not a promise it's a goal never be half hearted
(1:26 AM) Dream:	i love you lol i mean i like the way you talk i dunno suddenly space out and said it LOL
(1:26 AM) Alaine:	haha
(1:27 AM) Dream:	you know you've just inspired me
(1:27 AM) Alaine:	i grow up learning to be independent. so i need strength in myself
(1:27 AM) Dream:	when you said, its a goal, never be half hearted i grew up like that too but i could never think about myself
(1:28 AM) Dream:	i always thought about others first and never myself and now, i feel so alone
(1:28 AM) Dream:	i feel like i want to be cared for like how i cared for others
(1:28 AM) Alaine:	hmm the way i see it
(1:28 AM) Alaine:	i have to be strong myself first, before i can be strong for others
(1:29 AM) Dream:	well
(1:29 AM) Alaine:	so if people shoot me, i'm unaffected. if someone shoots my friend, i bite theuir heads off xD
(1:29 AM) Dream:	i guess it was the opposite for me oh well then that is the same duh lo isnt everyone like that? i mean well
(1:30 AM) Dream:	i have so few friends i cant bear losing one and i just wish bad things happened to me not my friends but also, i just wish they'd never happen at all
(1:30 AM) Dream:	i dont know what i want!!! god...
(1:30 AM) Alaine:	i think things happen to everyone but it's how you see it that matters
(1:31 AM) Dream:	ive never met anyone like you
(1:31 AM) Alaine:	no?
(1:31 AM) Dream:	my friends always said i was charismatic but man... lol you've inspired me me like haha
(1:32 AM) Alaine:	hahaha i have? it's just the principles i develop, and like to stick to
(1:32 AM) Dream:	same always blame myself not others
(1:32 AM) Dream:	stupid principle eh
(1:33 AM) Dream:	but i think people always blame others when its their fault they like the blaming game i just like to say, its my fault and i dunno why
(1:33 AM) Dream:	im stupid
(1:33 AM) Alaine:	lol you shouldnt be like that the blame game shouldnt even be played
(1:33 AM) Dream:	am i like, too nice?
(1:34 AM) Alaine:	i like to think, that when something goes wrong, it's not a matter of whose fault, it's what you're gonna do to fix it?
(1:34 AM) Dream:	yea so i blame myself and i fix it
(1:34 AM) Alaine:	haha i dont blame myself i just fix it.
(1:34 AM) Dream:	people always start blaming each other well you can lol
(1:34 AM) Dream:	but people like to blame each other so i just take responsibilty
(1:35 AM) Alaine:	i dont i tell everyone to shut up, and tell them what to do to fix it
(1:35 AM) Alaine:	>.> i'm bossy when i want things done
(1:35 AM) Dream:	same here i used to be the coach of my gaming team
(1:35 AM) Dream:	when we used to play for singapore
(1:36 AM) Dream:	they said i always thought out of the box
(1:36 AM) Dream:	but i had a problem thinking in it
(1:36 AM) Alaine:	lmao no common sense? xD
(1:36 AM) Dream:	haha got abit
(1:36 AM) Dream:	but sometimes also dont have cos when we play the game we gotta think of new tactics everytime
(1:37 AM) Dream:	and try to figure out our enemy's playing style during the game one day we should meet up
(1:37 AM) Dream:	i need somemore self esteem talks from you LOL
(1:37 AM) Alaine:	hahaha
(1:38 AM) Alaine:	i used to have low self-esteem but i'm way better now xd
(1:38 AM) Dream:	i always give my friends these kinda talks even though i have low self esteem its like
(1:38 AM) Dream:	i can give advice to others, but never make use of it on myself
(1:38 AM) Alaine:	you dont follow what you preach? haha
(1:38 AM) Dream:	yea i think thats quite common isnt it?
(1:38 AM) Alaine:	yup, but if you do, it's more impactful isnt it?
(1:39 AM) Dream:	yea i know i'll try lol
(1:39 AM) Alaine:	you will
(1:40 AM) Dream:
(1:41 AM) Dream:	i like talking to you even more now haha
(1:41 AM) Dream:	well, you're the only person i talk to now anyways lol
(1:41 AM) Dream:	i usually just play games till you come online
(1:42 AM) Alaine:	haha i dont approach people on msn i just wait for ppl to talk to me >.>
(1:42 AM) Dream:	well i used to do that but lol people dont talk to me anymore
(1:42 AM) Dream:	people in NS usually get this i think unless they just dont need me nowadays
(1:43 AM) Alaine:	haha you shouldnt be bothered if people dont need you
(1:43 AM) Dream:	well i want people to want me my family doesnt want m
(1:43 AM) Dream:	me* my parents blame me for the divorce by the time im 21 i gotta move out of the house
(1:43 AM) Dream:	my lucky brother and sister sigh my life is screwed up
(1:44 AM) Dream:	but i guess things are getting better now that i've met you haha i dont know i feel a lil less, stressed and emo talking to you
(1:45 AM) Alaine:	haha that's good what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger
(1:45 AM) Dream:	thats my line!
(1:46 AM) Alaine:	and youve got lotsa things gunning for you that never really did kill you you shouldve been stronger than me by now
(1:46 AM) Dream:	well maybe i am just that i always get emo
(1:47 AM) Alaine:	haha i hatebeing emo i cant think clearly i like to be practical
(1:48 AM) Dream:	well but we all get emo once in awhile
(1:48 AM) Alaine:	haha yeah and when i do, i get frustrated with myself
(1:48 AM) Dream:	so do i but i always ask myself questions lol like, why me and like, why cant the world be a better place for everyone
(1:48 AM) Dream:	sometimes i scold god but then i say sorry again
(1:49 AM) Dream:	hehe im sure he knows im sorry
(1:50 AM) Dream:	my birthday's coming up
(1:50 AM) Alaine:	haha i ask different questions >.> i feel like all the nonsense i have to go through, are tests from god. and when i emo, and close to giving up, it's like failing the test or something >.> i dunno, im weird like that
(1:50 AM) Dream:	do you wanna snailmail me anything? hehe
(1:50 AM) Alaine:	haha i dont mind
(1:50 AM) Dream:	well, what you're saying is true i used to ask myself those questions lol
(1:51 AM) Dream:	but now i ask myself new questions i guess so like, do you want my address?
(1:51 AM) Dream:	or do you wanna meet up and pass me something yippeeeee lol presents!!!
(1:51 AM) Dream:	i forgot to tell you, i rarely get presents its always like, 50 bucks from my family members
(1:52 AM) Dream:	my friends just treat me to a movie or food but it doesnt mean u must give me anything you can even send an email! but i like snailmail!!!
(1:52 AM) Alaine:	hahaha
(1:52 AM) Dream:	i think im high
(1:52 AM) Alaine:	okok when's your birthday?
(1:52 AM) Dream:	6th of december
(1:54 AM) Alaine:	haha okay, address. i'll send you a really pretty card
(1:54 AM) Dream:	OOOOOOOOOooooooooo lol got your pen and paper? or do you want me to send you an sms?
(1:54 AM) Alaine:	haha you can sms me the addy
(1:54 AM) Dream:	haha
(1:55 AM) Dream:	tell me when you send it lol so i can check my mailbox everyday
(1:55 AM) Dream:	its gonna be my first letter from a friend! haha
(1:55 AM) Alaine:	haha okok
(1:56 AM) Dream:	okay, im high lol i need to go to bed got a psychiatric appointment tmr morning at 9am lol goodnight!!!
(1:56 AM) Alaine:	hahaha alright, i have to be up for schh too
(1:56 AM) Dream:	if you wake up before 8
(1:57 AM) Dream:	you could gimme a call lol
(1:57 AM) Dream:	okay nvm dont want you to think im using you just scared i never wake up lol goodnight talk to you tmr!!!
(1:57 AM) Dream:	i had fun tonight
(1:57 AM) Alaine:	haha i'll probably be worst off,niiights ttyl
(1:57 AM) Dream:	hahaha okies night night
(1:58 AM)	Dream is now Offline

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