we used to leave the blue lights on and there was a beat ever since you have been gone it’s all caffeine-free and faux punk fatigues said it all before they try to kick it, their feet fall asleep yet no harm done no none of them want to fight me
combat baby come back baby fight off the lethargy don’t go quietly combat baby said you would never give up easy combat baby come back
get back in town I wanna paint it black I wanna get around easy living crowd so flat said it all before they try to kick it, their feet fall asleep I want to be wrong but No one here wants to fight me like you do
combat baby come back baby fight off the lethargy don’t go quietly combat baby said you were never gonna give up easy combat baby come back
I try to be so nice Compromise Who gets it good? Every mighty mild seventies child Every mighty mild seventies child Beats me
Do do doo do do doo do do doo doo do doo(x2)
Combat baby come back baby Combat baby come back Bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye baby Combat baby come back
how I miss your ranting do you miss my all time lows
It's a strange out of body feeling. Maybe I'll blog about what happened. Maybe I won't. All I know is that everything is fucking up around me, and I can't feel a thing. Except a pang of sadness. But nothing more.
I have been very bitchy to guys adding me on msn and they want to meet up and those typical shit. Lawl. Erm, oops? Here is one of the conversations to amuse you.
Session Start: Monday, 29 December, 2008
i hate you.(me@hotmail.com) breaking mortal bonds(the_idiot@hotmail.com) (emails have been changed to protect the privacy of parties involved)
(12:56 AM) breaking mortal: hey i was wondering
(12:56 AM) i hate you.: ?
(12:56 AM) breaking mortal: yea getting there if u were there! haha no la i was wondering if ud could meet up tomorrow well at least u won b meeting someone u hate
(12:59 AM) i hate you.: will be busy tmr
(12:59 AM) breaking mortal: ok how abt tuesday
(1:00 AM) i hate you.: dont think im comfortable with meeting up.
(1:00 AM) breaking mortal: r u sure u don seem to have thought this through ok this is final one time offer... how abt wednesday
(1:01 AM) i hate you.: dont have to. i'm instinctive. and no.
(1:01 AM) breaking mortal: whahaha well k im gonna give u a few days for ur instincts to recover........ all the best....
(1:02 AM) i hate you.: oh well.
(1:02 AM) breaking mortal: haha im logging off! u sure u don wanna change ur mind
(1:05 AM) i hate you.: dont see why should i
(1:05 AM) breaking mortal: well...... ahhhh ok fine ill give u ur few days to recover b y e k i know shy why* im just like this impossibly nice guy that u'll go home smiling and thinking... "man this world still has hope' other than that i cant say.... ma mum told me to be humble sorry
(1:18 AM) i hate you.: that's. the most retardedly cheesy desperate last min feeble attempt to save god knows what, i've ever heard
(1:18 AM) breaking mortal: what!!! ok u need more than i few days that is the most sincere light hearted good natured attempt to cure u that ur gonna get anyway i heard ip man is damn good if ma sis watched a kung fu film and loved it it has to be really good u feel like watching it? i got the show downloaded i cud send it to u
(1:22 AM) i hate you.: ok, i am going through shit in my life. and currently? i dont care what people think about me. because i already have my social circles who loves me. so i'll be honest here, and borderline bitchy. i'm a stranger, you met on the net. you dont even know me. and youre coming off as desperate, ans your pick line? needs lotsa work. i dont know what youre trying to do, and i honestly? dont really care. why should i? i just fell out with a boy* and i clearly have brains enough to know which personality i like. currently, you are not it.
*(content altered for personal reasons)
(1:22 AM) breaking mortal: im not desperate im attached too.....!!! well sort of just had a temp break up too!!! wow same
(1:23 AM) i hate you.: that's even more retarded
(1:23 AM) breaking mortal: u now while ma gf takes time to think about things
(1:23 AM) i hate you.: ok. so why so you wanna meet up with me? *do
(1:24 AM) breaking mortal: well i thought.. in the meantime, well y not just some gal out treat her to a movie and have dinner or something and make someone happy... and maself too maybe....
(1:25 AM) i hate you.: not. interested.
(1:25 AM) breaking mortal: take a girl out i meant okay its just an interesting one time meet.... if u change ur mind just sms me at ******** eh sorry its ******** i meant ******** ok la all are not ma numbers but seriously in sorry meant ur nicks have been telling a bad story now just tonight i really thought ud have laughed at least once throughout all this did expect to tick u off instead ok slamat tinggal..... and life's big..... er than anyone just curious u reli didn't laugh at all???? not even once? or smile?
(1:29 AM) i hate you.: nope.
(1:29 AM) breaking mortal: man i suck
(1:29 AM) i hate you.: amazing, isnt it?
(1:29 AM) breaking mortal: ya geez i need to improve my sense of humour u must b in a really bad mood
(1:30 AM) i hate you.: perhaps. actually no, i'm in an average mood.
(1:30 AM) breaking mortal: okay then.... hope to catch u in a better than average mood..... while ma supposed like partner does her thinking still hahaha chao
Little do men perceive what solitude is, and how far it extendeth. For a crowd is not company, and faces are but a gallery of pictures, and talk but a tinkling cymbal, where there is no love.
P.S: Ryan literally means the king. how coincidental.
"Omg Alfred, the baby in Cassandra's house is soooooo cuteee!" I said to Alfred in an abrupt change of subject.
"Huh, what baby?"
"The baby they're babysitting. So adorableeee, but he is forever speaking to me in Chinese!"
>:(
"Because that's the only language he knows!!" exclaimed Cassandra.
"Yesss I know, but I don't understand Chinese! It's so difficult to talk to him."
"He knows English what! And you still understand abit of his Chinese."
"Just because you know a few words in English doesn't mean you know the languageeee."
"He knows so many words, please! He knows 'triangle'... 'square'... 'diamond'-"
"Then you want me to what? Speak to him like, 'Triangle square square diamond'? What kinda conversation is that?"
Alfred bursts into laughter. Laughing so hard, no sound was emitted. Cassandra laughs too. Lag reaction time was 2 seconds, I think she was in temporal shock. My lag reaction time was 5 seconds, because I didn't intend for it to be funny. I only found it funny after they started laughing uncontrollably.
"Hahahahahahaha I can't-" Alfred gasps for air,"I can't believe I heard that hahahahaha."
"Hahahaha shut upppp!"
"Hahahaha I am so blogging about this tonight hahahahaha!"
-14678 It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it. But it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
[Edit: Texas is the fattest state in America. Just so you know.] [2nd Edit: By fattest state, I mean it has the most cases of obese individuals. Not it's geographical size whatsoever. I mean, come on, yall ain't that stupid right?]
Studying makes you eat alot. It's 5.44am. BCHEM's test is at 9am. I'm meeting up earlier in school at 8.30am. Which means I have to leave the house at 7am. I need about 30 mins to change. So I need to stop studying at 6.30am. That gives me about 45 mins.
SHEEEEEET.
What am I still doing here?
This time I wonder what it feels like To find the one in this life The one we all dream of But dreams just aren't enough So I´ll be waiting for the real thing. I'll know it by the feeling. The moment when we´re meeting Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen So I`ll be holdin’ my breath Right up to the end Until that moment when I find the one that I'll spend forever with
`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there. 'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares. Someone to love with my life in their hands. There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own And everyone wants to know they´re not alone. Somebody else that feels the same somewhere. There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight And damn it this feels too right It´s just like Déjà Vu Me standin’ here with you So I´ll be holdin`my breath Could this be the end? Is it that moment when I find the one that I'll spend forever with?
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there 'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares. Someone to love with my life in their hands. There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own And everyone wants to know they´re not alone. Somebody else that feels the same somewhere? There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.
You can´t give up! When you're Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough Because you never know when it shows up Make sure you´re holdin` on ‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on
‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there. And everyone wants to feel like someone cares. Someone to love with my life in their hands. There's gotta be somebody for me Ohhhhhh.
Nobody wants to go it on their own And everyone wants to know they´re not alone. Somebody else that feels the same somewhere? There `s gotta be somebody for me out there.
Nobody wants to be the last one there And everyone wants to feel like someone cares. Somebody else that feels the same somewhere? There's gotta be somebody for me out there.
-14606 If you judge people, you have no time to love them. -Mother Theresa
Happy holidays, while I am tormented by the upcoming CTs.
-14585 Our great war is a spiritual war. Our great depression is our lives. -Tyler Durden Fight Club
P/S: I do not have split personality. Ry and Jacob are real people and to differentiate between our posts, do look at the labels below. Jacob's signature sign off is usually "not (insert random name) ". Mine's usually me signing off with the last number I see on the page hits and a quote below it (refer to above example) and Ryan's the most inconsistent random one of the three (Refer to labels).
I am so flustered and all over the place now, it's a wonder my face isn't fully covered in stress pimples. Several small little volcanoes of mother effing pimples are saying HELLO WORLD! and pissing me off greatly.
6 days to the start of my common tests, people. That's less than a week. I AM SCREWED.
No, seriously, whatever happened to my resolutions?
Meh, time is zooming past in this semester and it's scaring me :( *whimpers* But nevertheless, I will not go down without a fight. YOU HEAR ME?! I WILL NOT GO DOWN WITHOUT A FIGHT.
Rawr.
Once again, I apologize for my previous post. I HATE RANTING, because it's totally not classy, but I can't help it D; It's a satisfying outlet.
I threaded my brows and as much as I tried to hide it from my parents, they are not blind, so finally, after what? 3? 4 days? They realised that I have sexy brows now, and they flipped, because no, Muslims ain't allowed to thread their brows, but I'm never one to follow the rules to begin with, am I?
Now, I don't have a problem with getting into trouble or being scolded etc. But it's what my mother says when she nags that really gets under my skin. It just emphasizes her stupidity and narrow-mindedness so much so that it makes me ashamed to be associated with her, let alone related.
I do not want to quote her in my blog here because I am embarrassed- yes people, it is that bad- embarrassed that she is my mother and the source of rubbish sprouted was from her mouth.
The title of this blog post pretty much gives you a gist of the nonsense she said.
Facebook is also evil. It is addictive and evil. Evil evil evil. I have been facebooking, WHEN I WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO. I was supposed to be on hiatus. From blogging too! GAAAAAHHHHH epic fail :(
But I still think facebook pwns all others like what, Tagged? Multiply... FRIENDSTER which lags like nobody's business and MySpace (confuses the brain juice outta me). Whoever thinks otherwise, I will bite you. Actually, no not really.
I have been a little more productive today than the days from the start of this semester till yesterday, because I actually did my laundry and printed my notes. Couldn't really begin proper studying though. My inefficiency frustrates me. I am half done with cleaning my room, which makes my den so much more habitable, thankfully, and thus, a clean room = a more conducive place to accomplish things like work perhaps.
And now it's time to sleep, before my eye bags worsen and get bigger than my already tiny eyes or something. Oh the shame.
-14480 To do that would mean, not merely to be defeated, but to acknowledge defeat-- and the difference between these two things is what keeps the world going. -Upton Sinclair The Jungle
3 persons. 1 blog. Elle, Ryan, Jacob.
I do not have split personality.
Ry and Jacob are real people and to differentiate between our posts, do look at the labels below each post.
Labels:
Elle= The Queen
Jacob= The Anarchist
Ryan= The King
